I drink love like nectar.
I can feel heat and space and the tension of invisible strings pulling my heart from all the directions of those who have touched it. The harmony of comedic tragedy generously resonates something in the depths of my being that I do not yet have words for. Look into my eyes. When I say I love you are you really listening? Hear this friend, I want to touch you. Hear me? Not your sex, not your labels, not your identity, not your value structures, not your pretty lips, but you. I want to dive through your eyes, swim through your heart and stand naked in the deep rapture of existing now together. If you can’t hear me yet you’re not listening softly enough, dear one. Just stop! Quit talking to yourself for a moment, and breathe. Breathe like the air is fire and your heart is ready kindling, and as you do, relax into the miraculous and terrible gift that all of this is. Dig deep. Deeper. Can you feel it? Subtler. Quieter. Can you sense the delicate dance of untold eons of writhing white light roaring through the vacuum of the space between your spaces? Do you know that you are part of it all? Infinity is on the tip of your tongue, if only you would taste it. If it were a snake it would have bitten, but already did before you were born. Fling open the gates of your heart with great bravery and scream the song of your soul. Shed the armor of your cynicism love, and bathe with me in staggering awe and the gargantuan bliss of existential vulnerability. Don’t be shy. What can you show me that I haven’t seen before? In all the the moments worth living for we are naked.
moonplum asked: I'm very comfortable with silence. However, there's a strong expectation of me at my office job to socialize constantly, especially with small talk. Is there a way I can manage my acceptance of silence while not coming off as unfriendly? (Hopefully I worded this question as I intended). Thanks for all you do :)
I understand where you are coming from. But it is also important to be mindful of attachment. There’s a difference between comfortable silence and avoiding socializing.
However, this doesn’t mean you have to come out of silence. Deepen it.
Silence is not merely the absence of speech, nor is it the absence of thought. It is the state of Being in which thought and speech have never existed. This is your natural existence and your primordial aliveness.
That is the silence with which you should get comfortable. It is here right now. “You” were born in it, “you” live in it, and “you” will die in it—yet nothing will cease.
Just like external silence makes it possible to hear noises, it is your inner silent Being that makes possible the experience of this body and the whole universe perceived by it.
I am reminded of a stanza from the Tao Te Ching:
"We join spokes together in a wheel,
but it is the center hole
that makes the wagon move.
We shape clay into a pot,
but it is the emptiness inside
that holds whatever we want.
We hammer wood for a house,
but it is the inner space
that makes it livable.
We work with being
but non-being is what we use.”
Non-being is the Being of silence.
If your job calls for some small talk, then so be it. You can resist it and so judge it as an obstacle or you can use it as an opportunity to deepen your understanding and practice of silence.
Namaste sis :)